I DON'T LIVE IN A WORLD OF MAKE BELIEVE.
Sometimes, I get tired.
I help several (over 20) people per month, and take in their energy, while giving out my own. I'm looking for a better way to serve more people, but for now, it's all me, all the time. Not complaining, just explaining. I'm also a full-time mother of twins, so I spend the bulk of my not-so-free time with them, teaching them colors and numbers and alphabets. At some point, I lost balance. In the midst of taking on the issues of others, something happened that rocked me - I found out one of my clients had been lying to me the whole time we worked together. I felt like a bad coach; all of the milestones I thought we had reached together were all lies. I think that was my breaking point.
WHEN YOU LOOK AROUND, ARE THE PEOPLE YOU'RE SUPPORTING, SUPPORTING YOU?
At this same time, in my personal life, I found that I was giving too much of me out to some people who were giving me nothing but negativity. When you have a giving spirit, you want to help everyone, and even I tell people that's impossible yet, here I am trying to do just that. What are you looking for in your relationships? Are you looking for loyal friends, people who are going to check on your in a consistent manner, or are you looking for someone who is distant but still there when you need them? When you are giving and not receiving, either the other person doesn't know, or they don't care.
Don't lie to yourself - only you know which is truly is.
I ALSO REALIZED THAT I'VE BEEN PUTTING OFF MY PASSION - WRITING.
I love to write, but had not made time for that in my schedule. No matter how good my time management was, I didn't budget this in. While I'm helping others live their passion, I'm not living my own. I know things have to change, and now, I'm working with like-minded people to make these changes. I've gotten more personal work done in the last two days than I have in the last month, all because I have an awesome friend who sits on Skype with me and challenges me to move forward. We don't do, "stagnant".
DO THE WORK, NO ONE CAN DENY THE WORK.
I love being around people who are similar to me. These are people I don't have to tell how to be around me, because they know how to be around me. I love that I don't have to deal with inconsistencies, and when I allow people who are pulling me down into my life, I'm grateful I have the gift of discernment to know when to back up or walk away. I am back to doing my internal work, because I know that my life's purpose is to serve others and in order to serve others, I have to get back to serving myself.
More to come. Have a great weekend.